In the midst of passing hours, feeling torn between oblivion and the powerful magic of creation, I find myself in a wrestling match within my mind and soul. Which side will prevail? Will I manage to bestow peace upon the rising storm within?
Sitting now, reveling in the silence that accompanies the absence of other voices, I am torn between pleasure and melancholy. Across the room, the fire flickers – soon I will yield to the soothing embrace of water, a comfort that has always nurtured both my weary bones and my weary soul. But before I immerse myself in that warm bath, allowing it to cradle my aches, both physical and emotional, I shall capture these fleeting thoughts on paper….perhaps in the act of writing, clarity will find me – exorcising confusion and sorrow, and leaving in its wake magick, love, sensuality, and hope.
Despite the gifts bestowed by life in me, absence, your presence continues to haunt my nights. What wretched twist of fate is this? What is it that the gods demand of me?…
In the lush tapestry of existence, absence reveals itself as a profound stillness, a quietude pregnant with possibility. It is within absence that the soul finds respite from the cacophony of daily life, a sanctuary where the tumultuous currents of the world ebb into tranquil waters.
Absence, though often feared for its void, holds within it the potential for profound peace. Like a canvas awaiting the stroke of the artist’s brush, absence invites introspection and reflection. It is in the absence of external noise that the whispers of our inner selves become audible … a gentle murmuring that guides us to deeper understanding and self-discovery.
In the absence of distraction, the mind finds clarity. It is here, amidst the silence, that we unravel the tangled threads of our thoughts, laying bare the truths obscured by the din of daily obligations. Absence becomes a sanctuary for contemplation … a sacred space where we confront our fears, embrace our vulnerabilities, and emerge stronger, more attuned to the rhythms of our own hearts.
Yet, chaos too, in its relentless tumult, carries within it a paradoxical grace. Like a tempest sweeping through a stagnant landscape, chaos disrupts the complacency of routine and conformity. It challenges us to abandon the safety of familiarity, urging us to confront our limitations and transcend them.
In chaos, creativity finds its birthplace. It is amidst the swirling storm of ideas, emotions and energies that innovation blossoms. Chaos dismantles the rigid structures of the mind, inviting us to explore uncharted territories of thought and imagination. It is within the crucible of chaos that new ideas are forged, revolutions ignited, and paradigms shifted.
To embrace absence is to surrender to the gentle embrace of solitude … to find solace in the quiet spaces between words, where meaning resides in the pauses. To embrace chaos is to dance amidst the whirlwind of uncertainty…. it is to find liberation in the boundless potential of unpredictability.
In the tapestry of life, absence and chaos are not adversaries but complementary forces, weaving together the fabric of our existence. It is through their interplay that we discover the beauty of contrast, the richness of experience and the transformative power of embracing both stillness and movement.
Let us embrace absence as a sanctuary of peace and chaos as a crucible of creation….
Let us heed the whispers of solitude and dance amidst the tempest of chaos, for within their embrace lies the essence of our journey… a journey of self-discovery, growth and the unending pursuit of truth and beauty.
Absence, I address you now as I have so many times before – my heart races and my hands struggle to keep pace with the words that flow from the depths of my soul.
Absence, you bring with you silence, frustration, confusion… It is no wonder that most flee from your shadow. Yet, in choosing to remain with you, I know you will impart healing, peace, and strength, anchoring me once more. You transform this solitude, born of loneliness, into a serene solitude where I can surrender and be enveloped by its gentle yet invigorating embrace.
Here I am, burdened only by the weight of endless dreams, for you already know all my secrets – there is nothing to hide from you.
Here I wait, eager for you to reveal the paths yet untraveled by my wandering heart, forging new memories, expanding my horizons, leaving my mark upon the sands of time.
As these words spill forth, I feel a sweet release – an embrace of the sacred wildness within me. I may not decipher the meaning of my dreams, but I trust that you will gently guide me towards realms meant for my discovery – places, experiences, people. Perhaps one day, I too shall feel your absence… such is life. I shall embrace each moment, diving passionately into each experience with boundless ecstasy, for this life is finite and I shall embrace it deeply. In you absence I face chaos and its endless possibilities and in doing so I find peace.
Thank you, absence, once again you have bestowed upon me the resolve needed to continue unraveling my own uniqueness. To delve deeper into the recesses of my mind that are yet to be explored. I recognize now, there is nothing to fear – my strength should not intimidate me; instead, I shall allow it to ignite further. I shall dance with the beauty of my inner fire. Whatever mysteries my dreams may hold, they shall reveal themselves as life continues its unfolding. I will not shy away from the exquisite moments yet to unfold.
Goodnight, absence… Until we meet again.
Eiros 